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Saying goodbye

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Time to say goodbye is the hardest thing for me.

I don’t say goodbye to people, no, I am not that cruel to myself… But I need to say goodbye to stories, to time that passes, to moments that end. I must say farewell to now to start the new now that is already coming. I can’t help it. I can’t avoid the cruelty of time when time comes. I am afraid of not liking the times ahead of me, so I suffer. I am afraid of missing the time I am leaving behind. Somehow I feel that I live in fear of all these farewells, all these lost moments, usually the moments I didn’t choose for myself, moments that time, life or destiny eventually pushes me into.
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If I can’t avoid this time to pass, I will try to follow the advice of a very special acquaintance of mine. As this dear friend (may I call you friend?) said:
“look at things with this: how interesting that this happens, funny”.

So will it be.
I will stop fighting it. I will give in.Trust and surrender to these kind words of wisdom…

So, posting this painting of Saint George, the peaceful warrior killing the dragon (that’s how i feel) I will try to accept the inevitable, get on my way to the airport and leave.

Farewell… There, it’s done.

Ecology of Sensations

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The last 41 days, out of the 41 years I have lived so far, have been very intense, interesting, provocative, colored, instructive, satisfying, confusing. Words keep falling down on me like drops of very cold water, on a warm day, on my bare skin. Refreshing, amusing and yet disturbing, unsettleling.

Instigating words flew by:
Being fluid
System
Ecology of Sensations
Resistence
Criticism
Love

The right and the chance of being lost
Admiring the temperature
Sensing the light
Unfeeding emptiness
Sex without the body
Hidden kindnesses
Pleasure of not knowing
Intentional agressions
Infinite curiosity and wisdom
Woods that are able to bend

End.

Os últimos 41 dias, dos 41 anos que vivi até agora, têm sido muito intensos, interessantes, provocativos, coloridos, instrutivos, prazerosos, confusos. As palavras ficam caindo em mim como gotas de agua muito fria, num dia quente, sobre a minha pele. Refrescantes, diveridas mas ainda assim complicadas, incômodas.

Palavras instigantes voaram:
Tornar-se fluido
Sistema
Ecologia de sensações
ResistĂŞncia
CrĂ­tica
Amor

O direito e a chance de se sentir perdido
Admirando a temperatura
Sentindo a luz
Desalimentando o vazio
Sexo sem corpo
Delicadezas escondidas
Agressões intencionais
Madeiras que se dobram
Curiosidade e sabedorias sem fim

Fim.